Beyond Skeptical

One Person's Journey Into Avatar

by Gina Clark

I was beyond skeptical. I’d been introduced to Avatar by someone who never dared take the course, and I let her reasons (secondaries) combine with my own to keep me from experiencing Avatar for nearly three years. All I can say now is the more you’re resisting, the more you may want to do Avatar.

I figured I’d read all the same books as Harry Palmer, and I had resisted the urge to drop out of life in the ‘60s, so I arrogantly imagined that I even had one up on him. (hah!) Forgive me, Mr. Palmer. As a professional seeker I had also done just about every seminar, spiritual technology, and climbed every mental mountain by reading thousands of dollars worth of books on these subjects every year. I did yoga, meditated, and felt that I was on a decent, if not perfect, path.

Then I read a story on the Stars Edge website Harry wrote called, “What Do I Really Want Out of Life?” His questions haunted me. “Who are you being and what do you believe?” Through all my spiritual explorations I had gotten quite adept at parroting what a whole host of other folks believed. My life had become “management by best-seller.” Thinking had definitely replaced feeling in my life. I cried only while watching Oprah and ensured the rest of my feelings stayed submerged.

After finishing and even before the end of The Avatar Course, I gained a life I had never known or been capable of experiencing before. While doing a “Feel-It” on a particular ray of sunshine in the setting sun in the ocean, I was feeling a quote by Ann Akhmatova I had read years before:

“Sunset in the ethereal waves:
I cannot tell if the day
Is ending, or the world, or if
The secrets of the secrets is inside me again.”

I am authentically calm, peaceful and quiet of mind in a manner that I had never experienced through therapy, great books, asanas or any other thing. My feelings have definitely re-surfaced. I am, for the first time in my forty years, happy to be me. I am also happy to be experiencing an easy weight loss after struggling for most of my adult life with overweight. The pounds are simply melting away.

Let me take time to acknowledge the Avatar Masters who guided me on my journey as they were kind, long-suffering, and exceedingly patient. I was not an easy student. I was learning to FEEL for the first time in my entire life, and I put up an intense barrage of secondaries. From where I stood, going into the course feeling equated to near death or at the very worst losing the protective barrier that kept me functioning and alive. Knowing that I am source frees up all the energy I’d been using previously to keep up a force-field. I am ecstatic. I feel brand new. Like on Star Trek, “shields are down” and I am now re-directing that energy for warp speed ahead.

I gained practical, re-usable tools for maintaining this calm in my life. Unlike so many other experiences, I don’t need to worry about what to do when the high wears off. I enthusiastically look forward to further integrating what I’ll experience in the Master and Wizard courses. I admire and respect Harry Palmer and am equally grateful that I can feel that in private, that there is no bronze statue of him anywhere in sight and, I was not asked to worship or pay any sort of veneration to him.

To quote Harry, “The path to achieving real satisfaction in life is an honest, heads-up exploration of your beingness and the beliefs from which your doubts and your answers arise. Who are you being and what do you believe?” Notice he didn’t say, “what does Harry believe.”

I am awake and alive! I cannot wait to begin feeling the rest of my life and begin helping others to feel theirs. Thank you from my heart, Avatar. Thank you, Mr. Harry Palmer.

Namasté

Gina Reneé Clark, Rancho Santa Margarita, California

 

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