Feeling Rich On The Inside
What I Got Out Of Avatar

By Holly Riley

Recently someone asked me what I got out of The Avatar Course, and it gave me a great opportunity to reflect. It was no small thing for me to take this course. What did I get? I got my life. Oh sure, I thought I already had it. I had all the symbols of success: plenty of money, an awesome family, a large clientele, an amazing husband who loved me, plus two great kids. All the appearances of the perfect life yet my soul felt a bit empty. I never really felt like life was fulfilling the way I thought it should be. I was rich outside but never felt like I was rich inside. It seemed I was always looking for how to be better, happier, or have more of something. I was always searching for the thing that would make my life work better: more clients, more vacations, more attention, more approval, more stuff in general. Life was missing something, and I was not living the happy life I thought I should be living. No matter how much I had.

Life was something I was going through but not really living. I ended up getting very ill.

Then a dear, dear friend, my sister, turned me on to Avatar. I did the course on trust, and what I found moved me to a place I didn't know existed. My search for peace of mind ended, and I discovered a part of me that I had abandoned. I also found another dear friend; her name is trust. I got to a place of trust that I did not know was possible. I don’t think I ever truly knew what the word meant; at least I never lived it. It was a remarkable experience to feel trust. (Imagine it…to trust the process, trust the outcome, trust what is happening in the present moment, trust each other, and trust ourselves). I began to fall in love with the process of life and to let go of my need for control and perfection. I lightened up and saw how tough I had been making life, not just on myself but on EVERYONE! Time passed and the magic continued to happen. I was falling in love with all aspects of life, including myself. For real this time, instead of always trying or wanting to. I started being with people in a way that resulted in wonderful relationships. Judgment dropped off, and a softness flowed in. I became connected and peaceful; a new world emerged. The funny thing is, I never knew how separate and protected I had been keeping myself. All that time, I thought I was connected.

So what happened for me on The Avatar Course was that I finally got to be at home in the world. I could feel the incredible gift of life, not just think I should feel it or say I did. I truly felt it in my heart. My success doubled, my illness dissolved, my home life became even more of a heaven, and writing and art became an expression of this love in my soul.

That was over 10 years ago, and I want you to know it is still happening. Life continues to get richer and more precious all the time. So, for anyone considering taking the course, or is even curious about it, I encourage them to give it a go. If someone wants to live more from their heart and feel more connected through life, that’s what this course offered me. I have to laugh too, that taking nine days out of my busy life to do The Avatar Course seemed impossible at the time. Now I think…nine days for ten years of this? What a great deal!

I won’t ever forget Avatar. It is something I use every day. I use the tools to manage my attention, to reach my goals, and to empower others in having their dreams come true. Avatar has taught me a kindness and compassion that makes me smile deep from my heart and enables me to see the beauty in those hearts I am surrounded by.

Avatar has opened the door to forgiveness and allowed me to take responsibility for what I am experiencing in my life. It is a beautiful foundation for loving relationships. I am so grateful to my sister and my family for going on this journey with me, and my dear friends who have trusted me enough to say yes, I want Avatar too.

Holly Riley, Nevada.

 

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