by Melinda Carroll
A Buddhist saying states: “Take all blame unto yourself.” When I first heard this I resisted, thinking about personal and world injustice. But when I did The Avatar Course, I quickly came to see how powerful this attitude is. If we are shifting personal responsibility to anyone/anything outside of ourselves we end up blaming the other for our misfortunes and unhappiness.
After awhile we’re in the quandary: I’m OK, the world’s all wrong. Like the pickpocket who sees only pockets when he meets a saint, we fall into the belief that if we are like that, so is everyone else. We assume that the other is blaming us as well. So we’re always in defense/offense mode. Since our family has done The Avatar Course, this simple solution has strengthened our lives: we know that our truths and happiness originate within ourselves. Inner power connects the intention in the field of potentiality, and this focus generates the mechanics for fulfillment. Being free from blame, which throws us either into the past or future, our attention is in the present, thus empowering us to operate where life happens.
Once I did an Avatar procedure dealing with my own self judgment (shame/blame). In an instant I recognized that what I thought had been my own judgment had been my adopted interpretation of parental and world judgment—a figment. It came so fast I physically fell back, like being zapped by a TV healer. But this was no sleight of hand, no show. “Wow!” I thought. “This was my own illusion!” And at once I was free of all that deadening weight.
For decades I had remembered that Eleanor Roosevelt said: “Only you give permission to feel inferior.” I’d seen the sense in that and had passed it on to my friends, family and students when they encountered self-doubt or depression. Yet self judgment still persisted periodically. These things can’t be figured.
I’d dealt with such issues only through the intellect ad infinitum, but only with Avatar procedures was I able to see it—or did it see me?
Once I was free of the phantasm of my own invention—for an instant it seemed to have a life of its own—I could see it. As soon as I cut the generating energy with my insight, it dissipated and was no more.
The restored energy, previously wasted on judgments, afforded me to start projects I’d been reticent about and many that I’d been too “tired” to finish.
Self-judgment is deadly paralytic. Self-responsibility is dynamically liberating—the vital key to being real, to living free, to feeling alive.Melinda Carroll, Greenville, NC.
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