Stepping Into Your Power

By Teal Thompson

Do you remember being a kid and wanting something more than anything else in the world? You’d lay in bed at night and dream about it. You’d imagine yourself having it and you’d be filled with excitement.

There were so many things I wanted as a little kid. I’d let my imagination go wild and I’d dream really big – no limitations.

I watched the movie Star Wars about five times when I was 6 years old. I dreamed of galaxies far, far away. I wanted to be like Princess Leia and save whole civilizations. I wanted a light saber so I could fight the “good” fight. I also would listen to songs on my plastic record player over and over again as I dreamed of being a famous musician one day. Just before falling asleep, I’d spontaneously write songs and sing them unabashedly to myself in the dark. I was happy, carefree, and not afraid. I was excited by my dreams.

As I grew older, I started to listen more to the adults around me. Since they were bigger, I believed everything they said. They’d say things like “Young lady, you can’t have everything you want in life.” Or “That’s impossible – you’re not going to be able to do that – you need to be more practical.” I started to believe them. And as I did, I felt a light go off inside of me. I was depressed. I felt as if I was stuck in a reality that I didn’t have any desire for. In fact, I stopped wanting altogether. I’d only allow myself to feel the practical, logical things to want. “I need to go to college” – so I did.

“I need to work in any kind of job just to pay the bills” – so I did. But my life had lost its light. There was no spark anymore. At age 21, I found myself on Prozac and heading into a downward spiral of depression and anxiety. Two years later, I did The Avatar Course. I saw the changes in my friend’s life and I wanted what he had. He was alive and creating all of his dreams – in a very short amount of time.

It was on day three of The Avatar Course when I had a major epiphany. I was doing a walking exercise (see page 14) outside when I realized, “It’s not because there isn’t enough serotonin getting to my brain that I am depressed; it’s because I don’t have enough free attention to FEEL what actually excites me.” I realized that I had taken on so many discouraging beliefs about my dreams, that there was no space for me to feel them. It’s like a computer: If you install too many programs without enough space on the hard drive, the computer will start to run slowly or stop functioning altogether. This was who I’d become – barely functioning and totally out of touch with what I truly “wanted”. I had decided that it was easier to not even want what I wanted for fear that I’d be disappointed about not being able to get it.

That was a defining moment in my life. Where I regained the ability to want what I wanted and to go for it. The reason I still love Avatar to this day (12 years later) is that it gives you the tools to step fully into your power and go for what it is that you most want. To feel it. To be excited by it – like a little kid. And more than that, it empowers you to create it. No longer do you have to put your dreams on a shelf to collect dust. When you learn how to originate a belief and to manifest it in the physical universe, you will light all the way back up.

What dream have you been waiting your whole life to create? What if it were actually possible? The Avatar Course is waiting for you. All you have to do is step in.

Teal Thompson, Austin, Texas

 

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