When Good Things Happen

by Kathy Kennard

I love how it feels when good things happen. Ever since I was a kid, I have experienced what I call “in-between times,” when the burdens of life are magically lifted and everything seems to get easier for a while. It feels like God is on your side (for a change), and because of this, you can be happy with yourself and ok with the universe. I called it an “in-between time” because I believed (for certain) that this gift of joy and lightness would not last. The proof is in my life.

One minute I am working hard at whatever challenge is in front of me, doing my best to cope, to get by, to survive, and then, just when I think the rollercoaster (that I call my life) is ready to plunge to a new depth, the car derails and sails off onto a peaceful and beautiful plateau. When I was 13 years old, I got a microscope for Christmas that I was sure I would never get. It was wonderful. I knew that I was appreciated, and on my way to becoming the next Marie Curie. Life was good. But eventually, I came back to reality and the rollercoaster plunged again.

This same kind of happy, confident, care-free feeling came to me again when I was 20 and walked out of the dentist’s office with my new bridgework. I was finally free of the embarrassment that I had lived with for so long. I could smile with abandon, with no attention on myself. I thought, This is too good to be true. I hummed a song, trying to block out the increasing barrage of thoughts that informed me this could not last, that something bad was eventually going to happen. Perhaps, I worried, if I keep careful watch, I could prolong this lovely reprieve. Too late, I was already worrying.

Avatar can be counted as one of those good things that happened to me, that changed my perception of life, but it was different from any previous experience. The mental/emotional shifts that I previously encountered after an “in-between time” did not occur. There were times during the course when I couldn’t believe how beautiful the world had become. I was in awe at the depth of feeling and mental clarity that I was experiencing. It was wonderful to be part of creation, to be with a quiet mind. Wow! And I knew that this could last forever, if I chose it to be that way. I remember the moment (in Section III of the course) when I realized that I had a choice, that it was up to me to decide. My Avatar Master allowed me to make that choice for myself.

The way I look at it, Avatar gave me a chance to create the life that I prefer. Previously, I had had no access to that possibility. No matter what I did to improve myself, it always seemed that I was still a reaction machine, looking for ways to make the rollercoaster ride less terrifying. Trying to fix myself. That’s how it was for me. It has been a year and a half since I completed The Avatar Course, and life has continued to open up for me.

I love how it feels when good things happen.

Kathy Kennard, Traverse City, Michigan

 

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